So after my post yesterday about my blocked ear saga, I was hoping to be feeling alive and well today…but no such luck.
A restless night with a very sore ear and feeling unwell meant an appointment with a doctor this morning.
She found I now have an outer ear infection, and another non-related infection has flared up as well.
A combination of antibiotics, ear drops, painkillers and a few quiet days will hopefully see me back on my feet.
Which got me thinking…I used to always soldier on, no matter what….I had to be pretty sick to miss work.
It was a rare occurrence to find me not getting out of bed in the morning.
But it seems after all my thyroid issues, combined with the stress of looking after a very sick husband, my baseline for feeling normal has shifted.
It doesn’t take much for me to want to retreat and collapse on the couch.
I feel like I have become somewhat of a wuss…although it’s still very rare for me not to get out of bed….I just seem to only get as far as the couch.
My inner strength just isn’t what it used to be…and I have learnt if I don’t listen to my body, I fall into a complete heap.
And if I don’t get enough sleep, I am a disaster the next day.
Is it more mental or physical, who knows…although in this particular case, it is physical ailments that have knocked me for six.
I am lucky I have a day job that allows me to work from home when required, but it still gets frustrating when I can’t do what I want to do.
But is this weakness, or is it best to view it as something which I have to live with, and adjust accordingly to make the best of what I have.
In a world where nothing stops, and we are encouraged to “soldier on”, maybe it is ok to pull up the drawbridge and retreat for a while.
I will resume the battle tomorrow…
There needs to be more drawing up of the bridge!